Fingers shaking because too much nicotine

Hi.. I´m Anahi, and I’ve done a very bad thing… I´ve just smoked three.. four.. I don´t know how many cigarettes.. after having quit for half a year. Once again hands start to shake.. again. One cigarette after another and another..nicotine taking over my body again.. My lungs feel full, but empty as they were before, always craving for more. I’ve got to take another drag, one after the other, in a vicious circle that makes me chain cigarettes until I feel exhausted. See how my fingers shake.

I’m becoming a smoker again, I know. My life is like the smoke from a cigarette ember.. It´s melancholic.. calm.. and secret. I float in it as if I were a smoke myself. I like staying alone smoking, watching the rings of smoke coming from my mouth and then wandering in the air.. I watch them till they disappear.. and sometimes I´d like to disappear myself.. to enter the magical kingdom of the endless smoke.